At Night

The most spectacular moment in my life is when i walk to the window at night.
I approach my hand and open slowly my window.
I look at the stars in the sky and I feel the air coming out of my mouth more calm.
I fear nothing when i close my eyes and i hear the bats outside.
I light a cigarette.
I smoke my cigarette.
I call it "cigarette to think about".
I think about love, about hate, about sadness, about happiness.
I do it because i know i'm relaxed.
We all should think about life when we are relaxed.
Our life has problems enough to get us nervous when we are not relaxed.
We cry, we laugh, we close ourselves to the world, we are too much opened sometimes but in the end we conclude we end alone and hurted.
Our wounds are so many that we don't remember anymore how our face looks like when we smile.
Do you remember?
When was the last time that you were free as a bird?
I'm tired.
I just realize that we can go on happy or sad.
When I'm happy i live every second to enjoy.
When I'm sad i try to be cold as ice.
But no one can't take me that moment at night when I smoke my cigarette at the window looking at the sky and the bats and the shadows behind the trees.
Because in that moment i close my eyes and travel into a diferent reality where i feel happy.
I just hear the sounds i want.
I just see what i want.
I just feel what i need.
So, please forgive me if i'm wrong but, don't bother me during that short piece of moment in my day.
Let me enjoy my dream.
Let me fly with angels wings.
For that i don't need nobody at my side.
For that i don't need to pray.
I can have it all nights.